Taking a break...

So, this is why it's a mistake to take a break sometimes. Yes, we have to treat ourselves from time to time. We walked an extra mile on Saturday because we ate some birthday cake on Friday night. We ate another small piece on Saturday. We both had more on Saturday and just a tiny leftover piece from the cake we took to Jane's school on Monday. Yeah. Thank heavens her birthday is over! Crap. I gained only a smidge to that point, but actually more than I gain in daily fluctuation sometimes. Swore I'd be better on Tuesday, but I just wanted crunchy stuff and ended up eating salty popcorn and veggie chips. I didn't go over calories for the day, but it was so salty and carb-filled, I felt bloated. Then Wednesday came and Jane was invited to go to Chuck A Rama. Unable to resist the scones, we joined them when S got home from work. {shrug} Bad choices and a lot of them in a row. Yeah, I've got a little to work off, but it's not about the weight. It's about something else. I have felt a little stressed and tired, then bloated and bored with the diet. Counting calories gets exhausting after a while.

The point is, it's okay! I am telling myself this in print because I'm feeling NOT okay. I think if I eat that much cake, I am doomed. I feel like it's all pointless and like there is no end, but I recommitted today and have thus far eaten pretty well.

And then, of course, there are the people who bug me. I say I ate cake and they say "Oh, I don't miss cake. I've never really liked cake..." usually they can't stop there. They just keep going on and on about it, making me feel like there's something wrong with me liking a piece of cake (or a potato chip, cookie, pretzel...whatever) Guess what. We wouldn't have cake in this world if someone didn't like it. I'm not asking YOU to like it. I'm only asking you to show some compassion for my temptation because I'm sure you have a temptation and I'm not judging you for it. Gah. Some days it just makes me want to smack a person and tell them that weight loss is not a group activity and anyone who thinks so is just as brainwashed as those of us who like a freakin' piece of cake!